Deep Thoughts

I have felt under attack the last couple of weeks. I’m not sure what it is or what exactly has happened. I’m craving the Word like never before, excited about what God shows me every day when I spend time with him, being changed by Beth Moore’s “Believing God” study, desiring Godly, mature Christian women’s guidance in my life…

But shwoo. I have been involved in more drama in the last few weeks than I have since middle school. Some of it my fault. Some of it not. And for the most part, my intentions have been good. And then somehow something gets said or something gets taken out of context or turned around, and all of a sudden, I’m feeling attacked or misjudged and act like a hot head, spouting off and making things not-at-all-Jesusy.

I’m not sure how it keeps happening.

Learning humility stinks. I guess that’s a lesson no one can learn the easy way. Just the nature of humility I guess. Maybe the only way to learn it is to mess up, fall down, and seek Him to make it all better. Honestly, I’m just trying to love Jesus. That’s all I want to do in the whole world. READ MORE